Beloved–
Don’t keep looking at my sins. Remove the stain of my guilt. Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me. Do not banish me from your presence, and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you. (from Psalms)
Many times during that 3 year period I needed to reread Psalm 51, usually in tears. There were days in a row when I just kept failing, then I heard the Spirit speaking to me, “You are reading the sentences, and not the words.” Renew, Restore and Willingness, were the words that stood out in “ALL CAPS” to me. I had to learn to be willingly obedient. It really is the easiest way. I pray for you to hear the voice of our Triune God speaking to you.
Luv Ya!