MaggieBelle

Beloved–

How do I know what would have happened if I had been obedient?

Believer or not every human being was born with an innate sense of right and wrong.  As new believer I learned that I was to be in the world but not of the world.  Some relationships should not be entered into.  But like the non-compliant child who ignores the warnings and touches the hot stove; I chose to be disobedient.  I didn’t think I was sinning I was just having a bit of innocent fun that made me feel good.  I entrusted God with my soul but not with my heart’s desire.

As I continued to study the Word the warnings became deafening and 4 months into the “non” relationship, I ended it.  Much to my surprise my obedience caused me pain, for three days I kept asking God,”why me?”  I was actually blaming God for allowing me to make bad choices (the Adam blaming God, “its that woman you gave me” syndrome).  Again, temptation confronted my desire to be obedient and this time I failed to even hear the “shouted” warning and sinned.

Do you think you know what’s best for you to be happy…but there is no door nor window not even a pinhole of a possibility of light.  It took me three years to recognize my sin and confess it to God begging for his mercy.  It took another 20 years for me to learn, that I could bloom (find joy) no matter how difficult the situation.  I learned that God had my back, he knew my heart’s desire and that his timing was perfect.  I learned that when I am obedient and joyfully choose God’s heart’s desire for my own that’s where I will find my happiness.

I pray for you daily that you will hear and heed the warnings when they come; that you will feel his presence by reading his word and not despair because His timing is perfect!

Luv Ya!

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